Oh Popeye!!! My Hero

The other day I was in the car driving to therapy and listening to Bobby Bones Show. Bobby was talking about being on a flight and there was a flight attendant that was flirting with him. He said he did not think that she found him attrative. He co-host asked why and he said “Women want Popeye” His co-host sounded confused and he said “You know Oh Popeye My Hero” I lost it. I had to keep both hands on the wheel.

You see BG was my Popeye. Honestly people would call us Olive Oyl and Popeye because I was tall and skinny (WAS) and BG was very muscular.

But it goes deeper than the outer physical apperance. BG was more than my physical hero. He was my emotional hero also. I felt safe with him. I remember it easy going demenor from AIT .

After the gang rape I needed comfort and a safe place. So I sought out BG. To me my sexual traumas were Brutus and BG was Popeye who would have the strength to beat up and knock out the huge and over bearing Brutus in my life.

So when I heard that quote it hit home for me. I just remembered how safe and secure I felt when I was with BG. I kinda wonder if that is why I have these reaccuring dreams.

BG was this safe place for me and I want that again. It does not neccessarily have to be BG. But I long and hope for that safe and secure place in my life. I seek that with GOD. I do continue to pray for a life partner who will be that. GOD knows that pray and I truelly believe that I will find that safety again ONE DAY

To GOD Be The GLORY. Take Care. Much Love