One year ago today: 2/4/2022 1236pm EST, my life changed forever. I got the phone call that my daddy passed away. My dad was 79 years old. I understood that he was closer to death as each day passed. I just did not realize that it was so very close.
I have shared before on my blog that I have a really hard relationship with my dad. It was not an easy process to Love him. I had to work on it with 100% intention. I made every effort I could to keep in contact with him.
He was a difficult person to easily love. No matter what. He was my daddy and I loved him. GOD gave him to me because he knew that I would rise from the ashes of my broken foundation and I would love my daddy no matter what.
His death has released the weight of the expectation I had put on myself to give our relationship everything I had. The weigh that I had put on myself. That I had to work on that relationship as much as I could.
There is still alot of work. There are so many unfinished conversations I was hoping to have with him. I may not be able to have a a 2 way verbal conversation with him. But I did create a google phone number that I can call to “leave him a message” and share my pain, love and hurt for him. And I continue to share this grieving and healing process here on this platform.
His earthly life ended a year ago. I am working hard to bring the good memory to the surface so that the bad memories are not the first thing I think of. This is the beginning of my ability to fully work on me and being happy with who I am.
To GOD Be The GLORY. Take Care Much Love
