Doorway To The Unknown **Possible Trigger** Please read with Caution

Session 9

It sounds so crazy to say this about something so hard. But I look forward to PE Therapy. Don’t get it twisted. I am not skipping and whistling to therapy so eager to revisit one of the most difficult things in my life.

I do look forward to PE Therapy because I realize that in the past 3 months of going to tberapy I have pretty much done equal if not more healing than I dd in the first 11 years. It’s like a baptism by fire. Being renewed as I run across glass.

This has been a worldwind of a time. I thank GOD for that letter about the research. I thought I was answering an ad about research that I would get paid for. Did not realize at the time that my payment would be in healing an not in monetary payment.

So this weeks session was as healing as the pass 8 weeks. MAN that Sacred Swan knows how to dig deep in my soul by asking simple questions

We started the imaginal and I am sharing details of the event. The same event that I have talked about for each week for the past 6 weeks. We get to the point of where all the soldiers have raped me and they are grabbing me and leading me outside naked from the waist down.

Sacred Swan asked a simple question as she always does that pulls at the depth of my soul

“As they are dragging you down the hallway towards the door what are you thinking”

I go on to describe the fear that I am feeling in the moment. I don’t know where they are taking me. We have to pass 3 dorm room doors before we get to the outside door. So I don’t know if they are taking me in another room to rape me again.

As we get closer to the outside door. I am not relieved that they do not take me into one of the doors we passed. Because I still have fear. I have no clue if they are going to take me to another barracks or even put me in a car or even something dangerous.

WOW Never thought all that information and feelings would come from such a simple question. Its crazy that in the past I get through the imaginal in less than 10 minutes. But this time it took me 18 minutes to get through it. I usually speed through the description. But this time I really took myself back to the even and really got in tuned with my feelings and my senses.

There was more that was revealed in this session. Please come back next Monday to learn what else was discovered in this session. (I have decided to do Monday & Thursdays each week to try and get caught up)

To GOD Be The GLORY. Take Care. Much Love