I think I have mentioned before that I have a hard time getting medical care at the VA. Mainly because I do not know what most of the guys looked like that gang raped me I always panic about if any of them would be at the Dayton VA.
For a very long time, I would only go out to the VA if it was a dire emergency. I avoided it like the plague. When I got a job at a civilian hospital I jumped at the chance of paying for my health insurance. Some people think it is crazy. But for me, it helps me to cope with my panic attacks and anxiety.
Moving to Charleston I knew that I would need to get my health care through the VA since I do not have insurance through an employer anymore.
I made an initial appointment and I felt like I would be okay for the appointment. The night before I found myself being extra emotional and snappy. At first, I blew it off for something else. But when I woke up the next morning and I was still feeling the same way I knew it was my anxiety about going to the VA. Luckily I did not have to go to the main VA where there are so many people. I had to go to a VA clinic which is closer to where I am living right now. And there are not as many people there so that is good.
I was able to face the day and had minimal panic attacks and anxiety. I realize that those feelings can come back but I am in control if I allow them to haunt me and I am not going to let that happen.
To GOD Be The GLORY
Much Love Take Care
